Tuesday December 19, 2006
Listening: Hoku Boshi - Younha (Bleach OST)
Mood:
Cansadita ... I "finish" to pack all my stuff ... yeap, early morning (say, today) I'm a little house, I return to Santiago, my family, my mom, my sis ... for people who love me.
I'm not saying do not let anyone here, kako-chan knows that's not true, but you need to return to my roots. My soul calls for a break from all this busy year.
And speaking of this year, as I doubt that fence to write something very consistent from the big city, I will devote some minutes to analyze this year that passes. Let's see ...
If anyone can say that this year has changed his life, I am.
If I started a little nervous, without fully understanding what I was facing, the passage of "living with family" to "living on your own" was not as difficult as I thought. I admit that several people helped me to "acclimatise" to this situation, but I thought it would cost me more.
is good that the U.S. is responsible for making you think of anything else other than your house and your beautiful family.
Speaking professionally, in the race I was pretty good. I got good grades, the occasional drama payments referred to but not more than normal. In addition, this semester I was relatively short. Classes, despite being stressful, were made in full and do not complain of the results.
other words, do not complain much as I can not. I know I could have given more than me, but that does not motivate me as much ... I think I miss a little more incentive on the part of the teachers, as they were flat this year.
Finally, in regard to college, went well. Of that, I have no problems.
In regard to friendships as I was away a little of my Tamachy, but it was unconscious. Because I lived so close, and that relations were a little more difficult. The distance, although half an hour by bus, Very much so. But at the end of year things were settled and I'm proud of my girl, came in fourth and now faces the challenge university. I wish him well.
What concerns Naru and Hoggy, Hoggy With
well ... I have mixed feelings. On the one hand, I liked to participate. Meet people (especially the emme-chan! N_n), will participate in the Triwizard Tournament in a vineyard, look like art and play champion goat boy meanwhile, was entertaining. But otherwise it was pure drama and things murky.
That fights for power, that love dramas (myself included here), which lies, pelts, stupid children, immature people ... arg!, I just remember that the blood boil.
But it's over and it is better to remember those beautiful things, those that make smiles out n_n (like when we took the sappy a raven in the game xD).
In contrast, the Naru things get complicated.
'd rather not go into detail, not because I canned, but because it hurts. In
I can say that I considered my friend, I thought she loved me the way I did. He trusted me, believed in me ... wrong!
to it as there are no girlfriends or at least I was not one of them.
And if Naru, if you wanted, if I thought one of my best friends, if you wanted to finish In Nomine, but to believe you have sinned. I made the mistake of believing your word, to listen to when you did not want to hear me.
I had gotten the mail that kills , that I wrote Blinded by the quirks of Sheba and my own sorrows. But if that led to you to do everything you did, it strikes me know what you would have done if you really wanted to hurt you. So
my friend, do not ask that you listen, you look and try to be your friend. Do not give me "and I that I have guilt, because I do not believe you.
I got tired of listening to you, to mourn sorrows of love, lament about not getting those who yearn. I got sick ... get yourself another to support your hobbies and fetishes weird, I'm not your toy.
But all is not as bad concerning friendship. My daughter has been a seven Blurn me.
This year has been funny, we mimicked a lot and have been working much closer together.
I am more than grateful to her and her family. I have collected and accepted no blame, no abuse. They have been my surrogate family, that support when I felt bad.
I owe much, without you do not know what had happened to me.
Thanks!
And now, the love of the subject: P
The year began like many others, with several fights because of his obsessions and mine, of jealousy morons and my past grudges. Normal.
But things changed after Hoggy, I noticed other, distant. Sure, we liked each other and could not admit it.
The problem was that, upon returning from vacation, everyone knew the "new romance", which I had no idea ... assumed.
That day I said I expected him to say. "Terms" were his exact words. "Let us end but we remain friends," I remember him saying.
I thought it could, to trust him and this time it had to be easy, but nothing could prepare the wave of lies then I discovered.
course, as you said you loved me, I would always be the only woman who would love, you were with another, with a brat.
So you thought silly am I, "I think so imbecile?. Seriously, I thought four years would be worth something to you, at least going to respect me and say 'hey, I like this person ... so you end up. " But no, you preferred the easy way out, the "we are more friends than anything else." Liar. Pets
you wanted someone that would meet your hobbies hormone. I was no good because, unfortunately for you, I'm still the world's oldest virgin. The only university that has not "over" yet.
And you know I would not have given you. Because I analyzed my life better and I should never say "return" that 2003, I should apologize for giving me never cheated with my cousin (my best friend was an idiot, you fucked up life and you wash your hands, saying it was her fault ... coward) .
Worst of all, it always made me feel bad, I always denigrated under your "you look pretty." Everything I did I was wrong, I was the witch who knew nothing. Fat, ugly, not as smart as the great seba.
Now, I have not always the crappy side, I can see me as I am. I can go and get visual clothes that I like my hair the way I want, paint black eyes because.
'm cute, I'm a good person, I'm smart and I'm much more than you can ever dream of having. I'm not even your level, never was, but now I realize.
But do not hate you asshole, I feel sorry. You are a poor cowardly, insecure, hidden behind that shield of pseudo-wisdom, which enjoys making people feel useless just to stand out and feel needed.
wasted four years ... I hope now you can recover what little I have left the race.
You know something?, I agree that you are excellent computer, but you die of hunger as a person. While
year gave me pattern of "freedom" in the aspect of love, had no idea he would send me a slap around the corner.
Yeap, I liked a classmate. Error ...
is not my fault you have a weakness for blue eyes Oh god ...
.
Anyway, I think you know enough about bakayasu. The only thing this last time I talked about it is, so few words on the subject may be terminated with regard to him.
Bakayasu is a classmate, is my age and entered me, but it goes well with its branches and is about to go out for practice.
At first glance does not look like my type
The thing is, with the passage of the semester, I ended up having a pretty big crush on him .
Uff ... while I was pleading. Can you imagine?, I say "I like you." Clear that this did not happen, he eventually ended up pulling me around a corkscrew tip. But the matter is that what I said or admitted it, I dunno. I said at last.
The problem was that I was only her friend and did not like that to kiss her girlfriends. I had planned it, just wanted you to know and with that end of a good time with this hobby, which I was really sick that time.
But you know something, despite its rare hobbies, you forget to call when he says he will, that is a cool most of the time I like to talk to him. I think if I had spoken before him, could have become a great friend. But it all ends tomorrow.
I go and he goes, I go back and he did not. Knight
So, goodbye. It was a nice year, I enjoyed talking to you, it's relaxing. But things always end and for me, is this.
bye.
Well my dear readers, that was my year. Well mixed with emotion tired and changes. I'm older, more autonomous and more beautiful, I know I'm cute and, seeing me, I'm starting to like what I see.
A kiss to all who follow this little blog.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Pd: Renji wanted to go with a bike !!!... Quero a renji for this Christmas (pd for katita: anyone going to leave me a card under my door black in Santiago?)
Pd2: I need a teddy Ishida ... want one !!!!!!
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